Woman, walk that plank as if it were your destiny...

What an emotional weekend. Ran into an old friend who I had at one time banished from my life. We talked of that time, he apoligized for his hefty contributions to my hellish nightmare of a couple of months, he told me about his own hellish nightmares from then that may have influenced his actions. Made me think about how turbulent things were back then, what a slippery spiral staircase I was on... I felt like weeping, I felt so thankful that time was over. So much has happened these last few days.... An old co-worker of mine called me up, she needed me to help her get drunk, her heart had just been crushed beneath the boot of some brute. What the hell is going on with people lately? Several of my friends are having their little vulnerable chests cracked open by someone deciding to give them impromtu open-heart-surgery. She was so sad, so desperately sad, I was overwhelmed by it...touched by it...just wanted to transport her to three months from now where she'll be happy again. Again, I was filled with a blessed feeling that I have had time and space and healing from the last time I had my own heart-butchering. I looked at her face and felt a coldness in my eyes, I heard these words in my head:
"Hell no. I know that place. I will never go there again."
I will never go alot of dark places again. Fuck all that misery. Just because I CAN take it, doesn't mean I HAVE to.

The sidewalks are full of Love's lonely children...